Curse the day I was born, for it feels like a lifetime of misfortune has been bestowed upon me since that fated moment. As I tread through the treacherous path of life, every step seems to take me further away from happiness and contentment. From an early age, the world seemed to conspire against me. Challenges and obstacles became the norm, as if I were destined for a life of hardship. It is as if the universe has its own cruel sense of humor, finding pleasure in watching me struggle, begging for mercy. Every decision I make, every move I take, seems to lead to disappointment and regret.

Ezekiel 16:4-14

“‘On the day you were born your umbilical cord was not cut, you weren’t bathed and cleaned up, you weren’t rubbed with salt, you weren’t wrapped in a baby blanket. No one cared a fig for you. No one did one thing to care for you tenderly in these ways. You were thrown out into a vacant lot and left there, dirty and unwashed—a newborn nobody wanted. “‘And then I came by. I saw you all miserable and bloody. Yes, I said to you, lying there helpless and filthy, “Live! Grow up like a plant in the field!” And you did. You grew up. You grew tall and matured as a woman, full-breasted, with flowing hair. But you were naked and vulnerable, fragile and exposed. “‘I came by again and saw you, saw that you were ready for love and a lover. I took care of you, dressed you and protected you. I promised you my love and entered the covenant of marriage with you. I, GOD, the Master, gave my word. You became mine. I gave you a good bath, washing off all that old blood, and anointed you with aromatic oils. I dressed you in a colorful gown and put leather sandals on your feet. I gave you linen blouses and a fashionable wardrobe of expensive clothing. I adorned you with jewelry: I placed bracelets on your wrists, fitted you out with a necklace, emerald rings, sapphire earrings, and a diamond tiara. You were provided with everything precious and beautiful: with exquisite clothes and elegant food, garnished with honey and oil. You were absolutely stunning. You were a queen! You became world-famous, a legendary beauty brought to perfection by my adornments. Decree of GOD, the Master.

Every decision I make, every move I take, seems to lead to disappointment and regret. The choices I thought would bring light into my life only deepen the darkness that envelopes me. It is a never-ending cycle of wrong turns, missed opportunities, and shattered dreams.

Ezekiel 16:4-14 King James Version ( KJV )

And as for thy nativity, in the day thou wast born thy navel was not cut, neither wast thou washed in water to supple thee; thou wast not salted at all, nor swaddled at all. None eye pitied thee, to do any of these unto thee, to have compassion upon thee; but thou wast cast out in the open field, to the lothing of thy person, in the day that thou wast born. And when I passed by thee, and saw thee polluted in thine own blood, I said unto thee when thou wast in thy blood, Live; yea, I said unto thee when thou wast in thy blood, Live. I have caused thee to multiply as the bud of the field, and thou hast increased and waxen great, and thou art come to excellent ornaments: thy breasts are fashioned, and thine hair is grown, whereas thou wast naked and bare. Now when I passed by thee, and looked upon thee, behold, thy time was the time of love; and I spread my skirt over thee, and covered thy nakedness: yea, I sware unto thee, and entered into a covenant with thee, saith the Lord GOD, and thou becamest mine. Then washed I thee with water; yea, I throughly washed away thy blood from thee, and I anointed thee with oil. I clothed thee also with broidered work, and shod thee with badgers' skin, and I girded thee about with fine linen, and I covered thee with silk. I decked thee also with ornaments, and I put bracelets upon thy hands, and a chain on thy neck. And I put a jewel on thy forehead, and earrings in thine ears, and a beautiful crown upon thine head. Thus wast thou decked with gold and silver; and thy raiment was of fine linen, and silk, and broidered work; thou didst eat fine flour, and honey, and oil: and thou wast exceeding beautiful, and thou didst prosper into a kingdom. And thy renown went forth among the heathen for thy beauty: for it was perfect through my comeliness, which I had put upon thee, saith the Lord GOD.

The people who surround me only add to my misery. Friends turn into enemies, their words cutting through me like a knife. Their betrayal stings as I realize that trust is a rare commodity in this unforgiving world. Even family, who are supposed to be pillars of support, seem distant and uncaring. The weight of my failures and shortcomings bear down on me, crushing my spirit. I search for meaning and purpose in this existence, but it eludes me like a figment of my imagination. There are days when I loathe the very core of my being, doubting my worth and questioning my place in this world. And yet, amidst the darkness, a tiny flicker of hope remains. Like a distant star in a pitch-black sky, it reminds me that perhaps there is still a chance for redemption. Maybe, just maybe, I can break free from the chains that bind me and forge my own path to happiness. Curse the day I was born, for it has brought me nothing but pain and suffering. But in that curse lies a glimmer of hope, a reminder that I have the power to rise above the darkness and make my mark on this world. So, despite the hardships and misfortunes, I will continue to fight, to persevere, and to find a way to turn that curse into a blessing..

Reviews for "The Curse of Existence: How I Came to Hate My Own Birth"

1. John - 1-star rating:

"Curse the day I was born" was a complete disappointment. The story was weak and predictable, with cliché characters and a lack of depth. The plot was all over the place and lacked coherence. The writing style was bland and uninteresting, making it hard for me to connect with the characters or care about what happened to them. Overall, I found this book to be a waste of time and would not recommend it to anyone.

2. Emily - 2-star rating:

I was really looking forward to reading "Curse the day I was born" based on the intriguing premise, but unfortunately, it fell short of my expectations. The pacing was incredibly slow, and I found myself struggling to stay engaged throughout the book. The characters lacked development and felt one-dimensional, making it difficult to relate to them or become emotionally invested in their journey. Additionally, the dialogue felt forced and unnatural, further detracting from my enjoyment of the story. While I appreciate the author's attempt at a unique concept, I found the execution to be lacking.

3. Mark - 2-star rating:

"Curse the day I was born" had an interesting concept, but it failed to deliver on its promise. The writing style was overly descriptive and verbose, bogging down the story and making it difficult to follow. The plot seemed disjointed, jumping from one scenario to another without proper transitions or explanations. The characters lacked depth and their motivations were unclear, leaving me feeling detached from the story. I was left disappointed and underwhelmed by this book.

4. Sarah - 1-star rating:

I regret picking up "Curse the day I was born." The plot was incredibly confusing and convoluted, with events that made little to no sense. The dialogue was unrealistic and awkward, preventing me from connecting with the characters. Furthermore, the pacing was all over the place, with long stretches of nothing happening followed by rushed and poorly resolved climaxes. Overall, this book was a frustrating read, and I would not recommend it to anyone.

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